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i couldn't fathom moving on but of course i did,
and if we're speaking truthfully, we were just two kids,
how much awkward songwriting is really worth it now?
how much overthinking is my brain going to allow?
i guess i won't know how you truly felt towards it all,
but sure enough your pictures are still blu-tacked to my wall.
i promise this is the last time that i mention you in song.
at least until the next time this guilty feeling creeps along.
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i've haemorrhaged all my self-control, my will, my determination,
nocturnal not by choice, but through lack of inspiration.
desecrated my debit card on failed self-affirmation,
hoping in futility for a sense of motivation.
it's 3 o'clock in the fucking morning, and i'm brushing my teeth,
instead of catching up on the sleep that i so desperately need.
my jealousy or my envy, whichever one - i've ceased to care,
helps to rue the memory of the bed we never shared.
i lie and contemplate my vision of the perfect world.
it's one in which my thoughts are no longer plagued by a single girl.
i am full of shit.
i am a hypocrite.
i want you out of my life,
but please don't take my advice.
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major bummer!
05:00
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this water is getting to deep for me,
i know i meant that metaphorically,
but in reality the fact is i can't swim.
piranhas circle around my feet,
they scratch the surface, i'm starting to bleed,
any moment now i might cave in.
and all i need right now is for you to understand me,
cause life is trying its best to find the worst that it can hand me.
the internet is far to scary,
so down the hatch with your bloody mary,
let's forget about all our faults and our fears.
the future's so unclear to me,
it's shrouded by uncertainty,
i'm not even sure if i like the taste of beer.
maybe one day eventually
i'll write a song in a different key,
but until that day i'm stuck trying to find a voice.
maybe one day i'll find a way
to stop despairing every day,
but until that day i'm stuck without a choice.
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4. |
parked sharks
03:15
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i'm no anomaly, these things were never meant to be.
i really ought to give up and move somewhere you'll never see.
it's not enough to say you don't know if you feel that way.
these stupid games we play they drain my strength from day to day.
you finally learned how to drive to know what it means to feel alive.
i wish i had my license too but i promise i won't pester you.
days on end alone in bed living off tea and toasted bread,
wasting away till there's nothing left, hating the fact that i'm emotionally dead.
i sometimes wish we could just go back to those bygone days i want to reenact.
the blood in my heart it now runs black, or something over-dramatic like that.
my clothes no longer smell of you. now the scent is gone so the memories are too.
i can't do this with somebody new, or at least that's how it is from my point of view.
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5. |
flowers by irene
03:23
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i tried to attach myself to the moon,
a foolish romance allowed itself to bloom.
i started on that journey so naive,
crafting my own world of make believe.
the distance that in time tore us apart
made itself an obstacle from the start.
my fortune was to be blessed by your grace,
but the music made itself too hard to face.
please eradicate this chapter from my uneventful story,
i'd rather fade away than die in a shining blaze of glory.
i'll admit that it's quite dark to look at life like that,
but i'd do anything to stop myself wanting you back.
inspiration rears its head at night,
but remorse and overthinking also bite.
i tried to adapt myself for you.
i lied about what i was willing to do.
am i obsessed with my own appearance?
well of course i am, who isn't?
when you're a lonely teen with no self-esteem, spots on his face, who still can't shave - am i endearing to you yet?
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helpless goblin
04:21
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i've never been one for resolutions, and chances are i won't start here.
i fill my favourite mug with tea in the most mundane start to the year.
stayed awake till five in the morning and never truly worked out why.
i see the whole world celebrating and endlessly compare their lives to mine.
how long will this inexplicable sadness last?
how long till i stop dwelling on the past?
acceptance of mediocrity passes through my bones.
my greatest enemy right now is the alarm that's on my phone.
i wanna be in better shape but this green tea tastes like shit.
i could have been a veggie but i don't have the conscience to follow through with it.
how long will this inexplicable sadness last?
how long till i stop dwelling on the past?
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maggie
02:52
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please stand, please sit, a mechanical whirr
sends you off to your final place in the earth.
lifetimes mashed into half an hour.
all your achievements burned and devoured.
magge, they sent you away.
maggie, they hardly even prayed.
maggie, we'll probably forget you.
maggie, it's cool, they'll forget about me too.
no one remembers your date of birth.
an orphaned child went through years of hurt.
condensed it all for the sake of time.
some holy scripture and you'll be fine.
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i couldn't blame you when you said you'd fallen out of love,
cause seeing you every other month was never gonna be enough.
it was a joy while it lasted now i ought to be moving on.
that's why you'll be immortalised in this budget cliche love song.
i never meant to fuck up, but then again no one ever does.
i guess there goes our plan of breaking up without a fuss.
and although i wanted to scream till every last blood vessel had burst,
a year of blissful memory was worth these few shit months of hurt.
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